This year was the most mentally and emotionally draining of years I have experienced. I laughed more, cried more, vacationed more, and loved more.
And at the close of this year, I have lost more of myself than I have gained.
I miss those parts. And it seems that most of my time is spent looking back and wondering. And missing. And whining.
In Genesis, God warns Lot and his family; "Do not look back or stop, lest you be swept away" while fleeing Sodom. And then Lot's wife looks back and instantly turns into a huge stone. And that's a pretty accurate description of what my displeased thoughts concerning this past year have figuratively done to me.
Jesus said to his disciples, "Remember Lot's wife. Whoever seeks to preserve his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life will keep it."
I'm thinking I should be done with preserving 2012.
My favorite translation of Yahweh is 'He causes to be'.
Those four words hardly skim the surface of all that He entails. Of the power that He possesses. The praises He evokes.
I don't need to look back at last year, because He Causes To Be.
He Causes To Be. And that is enough.
scribbled at 6:55 AM