faith of a chair

did you know that every time we sit down in a chair, we express the utmost faith in that chair?

we firmly believe, without a shadow of a doubt, that the chair will hold us.

we don't go to it and shake it. or turn it upside down and examine it with a screwdriver and a flashlight.

we just plop right down into it like we are doing that chair some kind of favor.

i have more faith in a chair than i do in my Savior. a chair proves itself to me ONE time, early on in my life, and i firmly trust that chairs, all chairs, will always support me.

i want to feel that way about Christ. i don't want to come face-to-face with a dilemma and have to examine my problem, or worry that i might need to fix something about it. i just want to approach it knowing that He has already proved Himself to be so good, time and time again.

He is much, much stronger and more faithful than a chair.


i have probably spent a lot of time in my life trying to be something i'm not. trying to do things the way i think they should be done.

normally, these ways are the easier ways. you know, the ones that get you where you want to go faster. the ones that don't consist of tears, and sadness, and depression, and hurt. those are the ones we try to choose for ourselves.

as humans, we often get stuck believing that what we want must be what God wants, right? I love God, and these are the desires of my heart, so this is obviously what He wants (Psalm 37:4).

right now, i want to quit. that is the desire of my heart. and it shouldn't be. just because i'm desiring that right now, sure doesn't make it what He wants for me.

As a matter of fact, He wants the exact opposite. He wants me to fight, so that He can prove that He is the triumphant One. That I can handle this, because He is living in me.

God has promised us great things right now. Not just waiting for us in Heaven.
In Matthew, the Beatitudes tell us that 'blessed are the poor in spirit and the ones who are persecuted for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven'.
it's a present tense conjugation in the Greek text. that means we have it right now, the rest of the Beatitudes (verses 4-9) will later be achieved in their fullness, but verses 3 and 10 are right now.

So let's pray for the strength and faith that David had, He didn't doubt God's strength as he met Goliath. I don't want to miss out on this plan God has for me because my own pride and sense of pre-determined defeat get in the way. Even though it means darkness and hard times, I'm going to man-up, for I know that what lies ahead will be so much sweeter because of it.


Christ died for us.

i don't think about that very much, do you?

'me-- who is born again but still so much in need of being born anew' i forget that it happened.

i forget that God took earthly form, and sent a part of Himself here to this wicked place to be sacrificed. He sent 'Jesus the God-man who came to save me from prisons of fear and guilt and depression and sadness,' to be killed.

He came and died to SAVE me from those things.

those things: the sadness, the fear, the guilt... those things that i spend so much of my time pondering, He came to give us relief.

relief that we can have for free. it will cost nothing. not a penny, and certainly not even the price of your own life.

do you have this relief? or better yet, do you accept this relief? all you have to do is call on His name. because His whole purpose was for you.

will you become anew with me today? i sure hope so, everything is simply funner when someone else comes too...

[all quotes were taken from Ann Voskamp's book, which you can find here]


"Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn't get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan's angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn't think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,
My grace is enough; it's all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.

Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become." 2 Corinthians 12:7-10

What is your thorn? What has been placed in your life, often times without relief that is there simply to draw you near to Him?

I know what mine is. And I hate it, hate it, hate it. I can't even describe to you the complete loathing I have for it. I have BEGGED to be rid of it. And it's not that He can't heal it, for we know that following a deep spirit of thanksgiving is a miracle-- but this thorn is a tool, this is how Christ is using me as His vessel.

What are you doing with your thorn? Will you become a case of Christ's strength moving in on weakness?

I fervently pray that I will.


it's monday.

i hate mondays.

but more importantly, i hate hating mondays.

today, i will go to work. rhema will see me coming through the front door and stomp her feet in place with excitement. she will pitter-patter towards me and tap my legs until i pick her up. once i do, she will promptly say 'elmo? elmo? elmo?!' and i will sigh, 'great to see you too kid'.

later, she will climb on top of every piece of furniture imaginable. because she's part monkey. and she will will succeed in getting herself in situations where she's stuck. she can't get down. and then she panics. she starts to whimper. she starts to say "hi! hi! hi" hoping that someone will look at her and come help her. eventually, after she whines and cries and calls out things, she will think to call me. i will hear her saying 'Ya Ya! Ya Ya!" (which is what i am referred to as, not because i chose it, Rhema chose it for me, so i love it. otherwise I wouldn't be a fan.)

Anyway, when she calls me, I will come to her and help her.

Does that remind you of anything?

Jeremiah 29:12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you

Jeremiah 33:3 Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know

Psalm 91:15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him

Psalm 50:15 and call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you will honor me

Isaiah 65:24 Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear

so maybe.. maybe mondays really aren't so horrible.
because He, He is quite good.

Read this book. By her.


i spent most of today whining and complaining
[internally of course because i live alone and that would be strange]

"nothing is the way i want it to be"

do you ever say that? to make myself feel better I've decided you all answered with a
unanimous "YES!"

yet, as i was hauling groceries up the rigorous three flights of stairs, I had time to think... and let me tell you A LOT OF TIME. but I'm not complaining.

today was a perfect day.

i slept in.
watched a movie
ate chicken nuggets and macaroni
took a shower
got some groceries
climbed up the stairs... (i made it all the way up didn't i?)
and am now settling cozy with a new celeb magazine
not to mention the crossword awaiting my annihilation
in a few swift page turns.

To kelly,
please stop complaining. sometimes you're just such an idot. 
Love, kelly